離愁

今早的我﹐異常慵懶﹐一直有不同的想法涌上來。

差不多都整頓好一切了﹐只是還有成堆的行李等著我的妙手去把它們減少到20KG。

記事本裡﹐密密麻麻的寫滿了接下來兩周內零星瑣事﹐看來放假也得忙上一陣。

沒來的及告訴很多人我臨時更改的行程﹐也許我更不想煽情悲慟的離別﹐雖然離別的愁緒在和家人吃冬至團圓飯時﹐在和JLO擁抱時﹐和WW啃著鳳尾時﹐以及ALETHIA給我GOOD BYE KISS時﹐早已無所循形了。

终于，又從一個城市到另一個城市﹐兜兜轉轉﹐我還在尋找駐腳的地方。

每當剛開始愛上一個城市的時候﹐卻又是離開的時候。漸漸的﹐我發現自己已不再會認床了﹐也養成在公車上也能睡著的習慣。

在不同的工作岗位上，遇上了不同的嘴脸，于是按奈不了自私和警戒之意，更学会了保护自己，甚至学会适时的反击。

在不同的环境里，满腔满腹的热忱，渐渐的，被熏染成麻木不仁，置身于事外，对得不到的东西，也只能嗤之于鼻。

太多介于妥协和坚持之间的抉择，我只能勉为其难的咽下，依然相信有看见蓝天的那日。太多的人，在追求梦想的路上，来来去去，直到有一天，忽然想起，我和他们，却人事已非，徒留下桃花依旧笑春风。

虽然如此，我依然还依恋着家里的百家被，还有被午后炽热的阳光暴晒后的味道。

夢驚

凌晨﹐夢驚﹐一行眼淚滑落枕邊。

慶幸﹐噩夢一場﹐安好無恙。

溫度﹐20C﹐乍夢乍醒﹐依稀聽見媽說﹕’ 你總是最愛哭的那個。‘

不哭﹐我只是懊惱。

Flash back-Jlo's Wedding

4/12/2008:
I took the bus at 8.15am to Sarikei to witness one of Jlo's big events in her life (as her Actual Day is on 7/12/2008 in Banting, Selangor). Jlo aka Jenny Law is my best ji mui in my ex-company. We share similarity like our name start with 'Jenny' and end with 'Ling' and many other things (cannot reveal one).
I was in a beautiful mood to travel early in the morning while the sun is still not too hot and the breeze gently awoken me and beautify my mind. I took a cab to reach Jenny's house which cost me RM6. It's a pretty short journey but I didn't even bargain with the taxi driver as usual since my mood is pretty.
I reached at Jlo's place at 9.45am as she was almost had her make-up done. Phewit~~~ She wore a purple layer pom pom dress, so adorable like a princess. See, the princess and the Cinderella as below:

The blessings rained down just like the rain outside the windows when we took off from the restaurant after the wedding lunch. Actually my heart was raining too because I can't ensure that when we can meet next time. And I was so happy that she is with someone who is so good to her and will take care of her till the end of the world.
Best of the Best-est to Jenny Law and Aik Han. Love you, dear!

pretty Jlo

Au Revoir

It has been 15 days since my previous post. Actually there are lots of interesting events during this period. Three weddings, Jlo's, my cousin, dorcas's and my colleague's wedding; ngiik and Yong's engagement; a week in my parent's place ; a final decision about the date to Melbourne; my first website publish on web. decorate my first Christmas tree.... Tears, laughter and memories flowing from everywhere and staying everywhere in the deepest part in my heart.
I seize on every chances to stay with those I love here as I will be leaving to the one I loved there. Isn't this what I expected? But the sorrows are getting stronger each day as the day I left is approaching. It's just like it gonna be long long way apart from them here.And I have a feeling that not supposed to have, it's just like I can't see them anymore.(touched wood). We gain and lost simultaneously on every decision that we made. It's a kinda fair world.Anyway, the sudden decision put me on the hot stove and I did hesitate until today to book the air ticket with the date earlier as expected and thus, I need to re-plan my schedule for the next two months.
Cb jia, I gonna lost the chance to gather with you, Tze Ling, YY and two amus during chinese new year. It's a gathering that I expected for so long and now I can't make it. The Chinese new year will still be merry without my presence but I swear I will feel the emptiness without you all's companions.
My all time favourite~

Accident

WTF!!! I won't dare to drive anymore. I crushed the car to the door gate while I'm reversing it. My brain was in a vacant until I heard a BANG and in nervous, I tried to put the 'R" to 'D' but my trembling & clumsy hand with a jammed brain put it to 'N'. Luckily I didn't let go of the brake instead. JIMBAI!!!!!!!! I hate this happening, i hate black dot and imperfection in my driving life. I grumbled to God :' You said you will protect me huh? Then see what happen?" I'm bad and blame the God instead of blaming my lausy driving skill. God, Please forgive me, I still love you and I will love you more and more because you protect me not to knock others cars and just the stainless steel gate.
I still drove off to have my hair cut after that, leaving the winding gate's beam behind. Eventually, I was not satisfied with the new hair cut.. f*ck!! f*ck f*ck!!
Bad day, and we didn't win the lottery with my car plate.